[MajestyJo]

Moral/Immoral

Many people think that this is a moral disease, I think it is a thinking disease. It wasn't the true me speaking and acting out in my disease, although I was responsible for them, because I made the decision to use.

I lost my morals, principles, and my life skills as a result of using, although on the whole I thought I was a functioning alcoholic/addict. Quite often those functions were not healthy choices, and I went from a good little Christian girl to a person with a mouth like a long-shore man and looking for love in all the wrong places.

The moral of my story is don't use people, places and things to make me feel better, but go within and connect to my Higher Power and live by the Divine Orderly Good to show me a new way of living. The biggest gift the program me was the ability to find myself. I had lost me, I was very fragmented and totally unemployable and I got to a place where I started to think, stop the world I want to get off, after being a very extroverted and outgoing social person.