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In A.A. we have to learn that drink is our greatest enemy. Although we used to think that liquor was our friend, the time came when it turned against us and became our enemy.
- 24 Hour A Day
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Alcohol was my coping tool. It was made me feel 10 feet tall and bullet proof. I laughed when I heard that phrase. It is an exaggeration, but then, that is what alcoholic do! Drink and exaggerate. It isn't about a drink it is about how many an hour. It isn't about a glass but a bottle. For me it was did I have over 20 or under 20 when I went to the Legion. It wasn't about one hour or a time out. It was about a day or how long did I go this time?
What I thought of as my best friend became my worst enemy. I could no longer drink safely. When I wanted to stop, I couldn't!
I remember asking, "what do I need to change?" My reply was always the same, "Everything!"
It took me a long time to see my disease. I compared the drinking and the actions until I started to identify with the feelings and thoughts behind them.
I don't have a drinking problem today, I still have a thinking problem and that I why I continue to need this program. I have to work on my emotional sobriety every day.
Spirituality is a change in our attitude, sufficient to aid recovery according to the Big Book. It worked for me. Most of my problems were attitude problems and I had a lot of changing to do.
Getting rid of the old to make room for the new. Cleansing my body, mind, and spirit.
