[MajestyJo]

Most of us have early memories of birthday parties - our own and those of other children - and as compulsive overeaters, we probably remember the food more than anything else. For as long as we can recollect, parties have meant eating and drinking. The better and more abundant the food and drink, the better the party; or so we thought.

- Food for Thought

http://www.hazelden.org/web/public/t...iew?catId=1903

When I saw the topic and then saw my picture, I had trouble staying on my chair. How often we lied to ourselves on the way out the door to those parties. First of all about how good we looked, about how many layers we wore to cover the bulges or the heave material we wore to make ourselves seem heavier.

Those old phrases, "Well I am big boned you know." "It runs in the family, unfortunately I inherited my mothers habits instead of my dad's.

Then when you get to the party and their is more lying. Well this is a special occasion, I wouldn't want to offend the hostess. This is special, I deserve a treat or two. Those two often were big bowls or glasses instead of servings.

Then there is the comparing, well I don't look as bad as she does. When I get THAT BIG, I will cut down. She really shouldn't wear a dress like that, it shows EVERYTHING! The b*tch and the cat come out, and as we indulge more and more, we savour our lies, and tell ourselves the guys really don't like those other girls, they are too think or fat, depending on what side of the fence you are looking from. Then you tell yourself, well I am not like them or if you have it flaunt it! The games we play, the lies we tell ourselvles and inside we feel miserable. They say that the most cheerful, happy-go-lucky person, is someone who is overweight.

Ironically, it has been my experience in recovery, that the prettiest and handsomest, and the slimmest and most well built, have the lowest sense of self esteem.

I always liked to say, "I knew I had recovered when the inside matched the outside."

Unfortunately, the link doesn't go to the topic discussed but good that it takes us to todays's reading.

Post made on another site in 2011