NA JUST FOR TODAY - OCTOBER

[MajestyJo]

October 01, 2014

Not just a motivation for growth

Page 287

"We learn that pain can be a motivating factor in recovery."

Basic Text p.29

"Pain-who needs it!" we think whenever we're in it. We see no good purpose for pain. It seems to be a pointless exercise in suffering. If someone happens to mention spiritual growth to us while we're in pain, we most likely snort in disgust and walk away, thinking we've never encountered a more insensitive person.

But what if human beings didn't feel pain-either physical or emotional? Sound like an ideal world? Not really. If we weren't capable of feeling physical pain, we wouldn't know when to blink foreign particles out of our eyes; we wouldn't know when to stop exercising; we wouldn't even know when to roll over in our sleep. We would simply abuse ourselves for lack of a natural warning system.

The same holds true for emotional pain. How would we have known that our lives had become unmanageable if we hadn't been in pain? Just like physical pain, emotional pain lets us know when to stop doing something that hurts. But pain is not only a motivating factor. Emotional pain provides a basis for comparison when we are joyful. We couldn't appreciate joy without knowing pain.

Just for Today: I will accept pain as a necessary part of life. I know that to whatever level I can feel pain, I can also feel joy.

They say, "No pain, no gain." Yet the truth is, "If you are suffering pain, it is a good indicator that you are doing something wrong, and you are not doing something right. I know I have to take an inventory, and look at what I didn't do, and I generally don't have to look too far. I am always in pain, but there is pain and there is pain.

[MajestyJo]

October 02, 2014

Keeping faith

Page 288

"We grasp the limitless strength provided for us through our daily prayer and surrender as long as we keep faith and renew it."

Basic Text p.44

There are two parts to recovery: getting clean, and staying clean. Getting clean is comparatively easy because we only have to do it once. Staying clean is more difficult, requiring attention every day of our lives. Yet both draw their power from faith.

We got clean on faith. We admitted that addiction was more powerful than we were, and we stopped trying to fight it on our own. We turned the battle over to a Power greater than ourselves, and that Higher Power got us clean. We stay clean each day the same way: on faith. Just for today, we surrender. Life may be too big for us to tackle on our own power. When it is, we seek a Power greater than ourselves. We pray, asking our Higher Power for direction and the strength to follow it. By exercising and renewing our faith on a daily basis, we tap the resources we need to live clean, full lives.

There is limitless strength available to us whenever we need it. To grasp it, all we need to do is keep faith in the Higher Power that got us clean and keeps us clean.

Just for Today: Faith got me clean, and faith will keep me clean. Today, I will keep faith with my Higher Power. I will renew my surrender and pray for knowledge and strength.

Always needed to remember it was my God's time, not mine.

[MajestyJo]

October 03, 2014

Losing self-will

Page 289

"Our egos, once so large and dominant, now take a back seat because we are in harmony with a loving God. We find that we lead richer, happier, and much fuller lives when we lose self-will."

Basic Text p.101

Addiction and self-will go hand in hand. The unmanageability that we admitted to in Step One was as much a product of our self-will as it was of our chronic drug abuse. And today, living on self-will can make our lives just as unmanageable as they were when we were using. When our ideas, our desires, our demands take first place in our lives, we find ourselves in constant conflict with everyone and everything around us.

Self-will reflects our reliance on ego. The only thing that will free us from self-will and the conflict it generates in our lives is to break our reliance on ego, coming to rely instead on the guidance and power offered us by a loving God.

We are taught to consult spiritual principles, not our selfish desires, in making our decisions. We are taught to seek guidance from a Higher Power, one with a larger vision of things than our own. In doing this, we find our lives meshing more and more easily with the order of things around us. No longer do we exclude ourselves from the flow of life; we become a part of it, and discover the fullness of what recovery has to offer.

Just for Today: I seek freedom from ego and the conflicts generated by self-will. I will try to improve my conscious contact with the God of my understanding, seeking the guidance and power I need to live in harmony with my world.

Always a good one, it is a remember when for me. As I have share before, I got up in front of my home group, when I spoke for a 3 year anniversary and said, "I just found out I had an ego, I thought it was a man thing." The looks on the faces in the audience was priceless.

[MajestyJo]

October 04, 2014

Thirty-day wonder

Page 290

"When we first begin to enjoy relief from our addiction, we run the risk of assuming control of our lives again. We forget the agony and pain that we have known."

Basic Text p.48

Many of us have been "thirty-day wonders" We were desperate and dying when we showed up at our first NA meeting. We identified with the addicts we met there and the message they shared. With their support, we were finally able to stop using and catch a free breath. For the first time in a long, long time, we felt at home. Overnight, our lives were transformed; we walked, talked, ate, drank, slept, and dreamed Narcotics Anonymous.

Then, Narcotics Anonymous lost its novelty. Meetings that had been a thrill became monotonous. Our wonderful NA friends became bores; their uplifting NA talk, drivel. When our former friends called, inviting us back for some of the old fun, we kissed our recovery goodbye.

Sooner or later, we made our way back to the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous. Nothing had changed out there, we'd discovered-not us, not our friends, not the drugs, not anything. If anything, it had gotten worse than ever. True, NA meetings may not be a laugh riot, and our NA friends may not be spiritual giants. But there's a power in the meetings, a common bond among the members, a life to the program that we cant do without. Today, our recovery is more than just a fad-it's a way of life. We're going to practice living our program like our lives depend on it, because they do.

Just for Today: I'm no "thirty-day wonder" The NA way is my way of life, and I'm here for the duration.

Yes it isn't a 30 day band aid and I am all better, it is one day at a time, I choose not to use. Just for today, I choose not to pick up a drug, no matter what form it takes, and I choose the Na WAY.

http://www.na.org/admin/include/spaw...ay_Jul2014.pdf

[MajestyJo]

October 05, 2014

Ask for mercy, not justice

Page 291

"Many of us have difficulty admitting that we caused harm for others... We cut away our justifications and our ideas of being a victim."

Basic Text p.37

Our lives are progressing nicely. Things are going good, and each year in recovery brings more material and spiritual gifts. We may have a little money in the bank, a new car, or a committed relationship. We have a little self-confidence, and our faith in a Higher Power is growing.

Then, something happens. Someone breaks into our new car and steals the stereo, or the person we're in the relationship with becomes unfaithful. Right away, we feel victimized. "Where's the justice?" we wail. But if we take a look back on our own behavior, we may find that we've been guilty of what's just been done to us. We realize we wouldn't really want justice-not for ourselves, and not for others. What we want is mercy.

We thank a loving God for the compassion we've been shown, and we take the time to appreciate all the precious gifts that recovery brings.

Just for Today: I will pray for mercy, not justice. I am grateful for the compassion I've been shown, and will offer mercy to others.

[MajestyJo]

October 06, 2014

Amends without expectations

Page 292

"Projections about actually making amends can be a major obstacle both in making the list and in becoming willing."

Basic Text p.38

The Eighth Step asks us to become willing to make amends to all persons we have harmed. As we approach this step, we may wonder what the outcome of our amends will be. Will we be forgiven? Relieved of any lingering guilt? Or will we be tarred and feathered by the persons we've harmed?

Our tendency to seek forgiveness must be surrendered if we expect to receive the spiritual benefits of the Eighth and Ninth Steps. If we approach these steps expecting anything, we're likely to be very disappointed with the results. We want to ask ourselves if we are pinning our hopes on gaining the forgiveness of the person to whom we are making amends. Or maybe we're hoping we'll be excused from our debts by some sympathetic creditor moved to tears by our hard-luck story.

We need to be willing to make our amends regardless of the outcome. We can plan the amends, but we can't plan the results. Although we may not be granted a full pardon by everyone to whom we owe amends, we will learn to forgive ourselves. In the process, we will find that we no longer have to carry the burdens of the past.

Just for Today: I will let go of any expectations I have on the people to whom I owe amends.

This is a good one! We can't expect someone to forgive us. For one thing, a lot depends on how much we have changed and how long we have changed for and kept living our changing ways, for the person to see that we really mean it. How many times in the past have we made false promises and given our word only to break it, because we allowed our drug of choice to take over the reins of our life.

We can't put expectations on others that are not capable of meeting them. The same goes the other way, they don't want to put expectations on us, if they feel we are not capable of meeting them.

[MajestyJo]

October 07, 2014

Depending on our Higher Power

Page 293

"As recovering addicts, we find that we are still dependent, but our dependence has shifted from the things around us to a loving God and the inner strength we get in our relationship with Him."

Basic Text pp.67-68

For many addicts, rebelliousness is second nature. We didn't want to depend on anyone or anything, and especially not on God. The beauty of using, we thought, was that it gave us the power to be and feel anything we wanted, all by ourselves. But the price we paid for this illusory freedom was a dependence beyond our worst nightmares. Rather than freeing us, using enslaved us.

When we came to Narcotics Anonymous, we learned that dependence on God didn't have to mean what we may have thought it meant. Yes, if we wanted to be restored to sanity, we would need to tap "a Power greater than ourselves". However, we could choose our own concept of this Higher Power-we could even make one up. Dependence on a Higher Power would not limit us, we discovered; it would free us.

The Power we find in recovery is the power we lacked on our own. It is the love we were afraid to depend on others for. It is the sense of personal direction we never had, the guidance we couldn't humble ourselves to ask for or trust others to give. It is all these things, and it is our own. Today, we are grateful to have a Higher Power to depend on.

Just for Today: I will depend on the love and inner strength I draw from the God of my own understanding.

As a sponsee of mine said to me, "I listened to my Lower Power for years, it is only right that I listened to my Higher Power in today." Maybe not all people perceive their God that way, but it worked for him. It is the God of our understanding. It is a spiritual program a gift of recovery, not a religious one. A God of any religion can help you get clean and sober.

[MajestyJo]

October 08, 2014

A new pattern of living

Page 294

"We suspect that if we do not use what we have, we will lose what we have."

Basic Text p. 75

Addiction gave a pattern to our lives, and with it a meaning-a dark, diseased meaning, to be sure, but a meaning nonetheless. The Narcotics Anonymous recovery program gives us a new pattern of living to replace our old routines. And with that new pattern comes a new meaning to our lives, one of light and hope.

What is this new pattern of living? Instead of isolation, we find fellowship. Instead of living blindly, repeating the same mistakes again and again, we regularly examine ourselves, free to keep what helps us grow and discard what doesn't. Rather than constantly trying to get by on our own limited power, we develop a conscious contact with a loving Power greater than ourselves.

Our life must have a pattern. To maintain our recovery, we must maintain the new patterns our program has taught us. By giving regular attention to these patterns, we will maintain the freedom we've found from the deadly disease of addiction, and keep hold of the meaning recovery has brought to our lives.

Just for Today: I will begin a new pattern in my life: the regular maintenance of my recovery.

Always thought the quote was odd, but have found that it is true, even in today. If I don't share my recovery, don't keep active in service in one form or another, my blanket of denial grows thick and the ice I walk on is thin, and could take me back to a relapse.

[MajestyJo]

October 09, 2014

Order

Page 295

"We emphasize setting our house in order because it brings us relief."

Basic Text p. 93

Focusing on what others are doing can provide momentary relief from having to take a look at ourselves. But one of the secrets of success in Narcotics Anonymous is making sure our own house is in order. So what does "setting our house in order" mean, anyway?

It means we work the steps, allowing us to look at our role in our relationships with others. When we have a problem with someone, we can take our own inventory to find out what our part in the problem has been. With the help of our sponsor, we strive to set it right. Then, each day, we continue taking our inventory to avoid repeating the same mistakes in the future.

It's pretty simple. We treat others as we would like others to treat us. We promptly make amends when we owe them. And when we turn our lives over to the care of our Higher Power on a daily basis, we can start to avoid running on the self-will so characteristic of our active addiction. Guided by a Power that seeks the best for everyone, our relationships with others will surely improve.

Just for Today: I will set my own house in order. Today, I will examine my part in the problems in my life. If I owe amends, I will make them.

As you have probably gotten to know me, order isn't one of my strong points. My boss use to complain about my desk. He would say, "Look at my desk and how clean it is." I would say, "Yes, that is because everything is here on my desk." I called it "Orderly Chaos." It didn't look good, but I knew where everything was unless you touched it or took it away. If you were so silly to do such a thing, God help your soul, back then, prior to recovery, I was god, in case you didn't know. Another one of those attitudes I had to change.

[MajestyJo]

October 10, 2014

Consequences

Page 296

"Before we got clean, most of our actions were guided by impulse. Today, we are not locked into this type of thinking."

Basic Text p. 87

Ever been tempted to do something even when you knew the results would be disastrous? Ever thought about how much it was going to hurt to do what you were tempted to do, then proceed to do it anyway?

It is said that there are consequences to every action. Before we got clean, many of us simply didn't believe this. But now we know exactly what it means. When we act, we know there will be consequences to pay. No longer can we decide to do something in ignorance when we know full well that we won't like the price we'll have to pay.

There's a prize and a price. It's okay to act despite the consequences if we're willing to pay the price, but there's always one to pay.

Just for Today: I will think about the consequences of my actions before I take them.

Debating about posting or going to bed. The only problem was I have a book I want to read, tennis I want to watch, and not sure how sleep would fit in, I have the feeling I will fall asleep doing any of it. That would be my consequences, I probably should have gone to bed at 8 p.m. but that always seems foreign to me.

Sometimes with appointments the next day, I have problems. I get my days almost back to normal and they end up back changed around. My body is so sore, I feel like I won't be able to sleep even if I wanted to, then I feel a little bit sorry for myself. BooHoo!

[MajestyJo]

October 11, 2014

Eyeglasses and attitudes

Page 297

"Our best thinking got us into trouble.... Recovery is an active change in our ideas and attitudes."

Basic Text p.53

In active addiction, the world probably looked like a horrible place. Using helped us tolerate the world we saw. Today, however, we understand that the world's condition wasn't really the problem. It was our ideas and attitudes about the world that made it impossible for us to find a comfortable place in it.

Our attitudes and our ideas are the eyeglasses through which we see our lives. If our "glasses" are smudged or dirty, our lives look dim. If our attitudes aren't well focused, the whole world appears distorted. To see the world clearly, we need to keep our attitudes and ideas clean, free of things like resentment, denial, self-pity, and closed-mindedness. To insure our vision of life is in focus, we have to bring our ideas in line with reality.

In addiction, our best thinking kept us from clearly seeing either the world or our part in it. Recovery serves to correct the prescriptions in our attitudinal eyewear. By stripping away our denial and replacing it with faith, self-honesty, humility, and responsibility, the steps help us see our lives in a whole new way. Then the steps help us keep our spiritual lenses clean, encouraging us to regularly examine our idea' our attitudes, and our actions.

Today, seen through the clean lenses of faith and recovery the world looks like a warm, inviting place to live.

Just for Today: I will view the world and my life through the clean spiritual lenses of my program.

Great reading, it explains my son's thinking and that of a few people and even a few people in recovery, who I see as sober but not having sobriety, because they use gambling, pot, pill, and other substances to maintain their sobriety. They are so caught up on the horrors of the word and they take it all on as their problems and become so obsessive compulsive about it. I say don't take it on, pray and turn it over. Do what you can, vote, parade and if you want work for a constituency, or what ever works for you, but don't let it rule or take over your life.

[MajestyJo]

October 12, 2014

Being right

Page 298

"When we admit that our lives have become unmanageable, we don't have to argue our point of view... We no longer have to be right all the time."

Basic Text p. 56

Nothing isolates us more quickly from the warmth and camaraderie of our fellow NA members than having to be "right" Insecure, we pretend to be some kind of authority figure. Suffering from low self-esteem, we try to build ourselves up by putting others down. At best, such tactics push others away from us; at worst, they draw attack. The more we try to impress others with how "right" we are, the more wrong we become.

We don't have to be "right" to be secure; we don't have to pretend to have all the answers for others to love or respect us. In fact, just the opposite is true. None of us have all the answers. We depend upon one another to help bridge the gaps in our understanding of things, and we depend upon a Power greater than our own to make up for our personal powerlessness. We live easily with others when we offer what we know, admit what we don't, and seek to learn from our peers. We live securely in ourselves when we cease relying on our own power and start relying on the God we've come to understand in recovery.

We don't have to be "right" all the time, just recovering.

Just for Today: God, I admit my powerlessness and the unmanageability of my life. Help me live with others as an equal, dependent upon you for direction and strength.

Don't have to be right, but do have the right to express my view. We can agree to disagree. We are all individuals with a common bond, to carry the message of recovery. For me, it is the 12 Steps of Recovery, it is the common denominator between all the fellowships.

A drug is a drug, and it all leads to the same soul sickness. Alcohol is a drug. Food is a drug. Substitution doesn't work, it will bring you back to your drug of choice, and the disease of more.

Each day, I have to do Step One. I am powerless and my life is unmanageable when managed by me. We can do what I can't do alone.

[MajestyJo]

October 13, 2014

Making a difference

Page 299

"Words cannot describe the sense of spiritual awareness that we receive when we have given something, no matter how small, to another person."

Basic Text p. 100

Sometimes it seems as though there is so much wrong with the world that we might as well forget trying to make a difference. "After all," we think, "what in the world can I do? I'm just one person." Whether our concerns are so broad that we desire global peace or so personal that we simply want recovery made available to every addict who wants it, the task seems overwhelming. "So much work to do, so little time," we sigh, sometimes wondering how we'll ever do any good.

Amazingly enough, the smallest contributions can make the biggest difference. To gain more from life than an ordinary, plodding existence requires very little effort on our parts. We ourselves are transformed by the deep satisfaction we experience when we lift the spirits of just one person. When we smile at someone who is frowning, when we let someone in front of us on the freeway, when we call a newcomer just to say we care, we enter the realm of the extraordinary.

Want to change the world? Start with the addict sitting next to you tonight, and then imagine your act of kindness multiplied. One person at a time, each one of us makes a difference.

Just for Today: An act of kindness costs me nothing, but is priceless to the recipient. I will be kind to someone today.

We can make a difference. We don't have to take things on to do it. As I like to say, if I just try to make my space the best space it can be, and the person next to me, tried to make their space the best that it could be, it would be a wonderful world.

Prayer can stretch around the world. God is bigger than man. Why blame God for man's destructive thinking, greed and evil thinking. As they say in recovery, we can have a thought, we don't have to follow it by action. What the world needs is a great big NA meetings!

[MajestyJo]

October 14, 2014

The end of loneliness

Page 300

"With the love that I am shown in Narcotics Anonymous, I have no excuse for loneliness."

Basic Text p. 262

Addiction is a lonely disease. We may be surrounded by people but, sooner or later, our addiction drives a wedge between us and even our closest loved ones. Many of us are driven to Narcotics Anonymous by a desperate loneliness.

Though we may approach the rooms of NA with caution and suspicion, we are welcomed with a hug, a smile, and a warm "keep coming back." This may be the first place where we have felt welcome in a long, long while. We watch other members talking and laughing, leaving the meeting in groups for more talk at the local coffee shop. We wonder if we, too, could become a part of this loving bunch.

Our pattern of isolation can make it difficult for us to join in. Over time, however, we begin to feel "a part of" rather than "apart from." Soon, when we walk into the rooms, we feel at home. We begin to make friends and our lives start to change.

NA teaches us how to overcome our isolation. Through our first tentative friendships formed in our home group, we start to find that making friends isn't hard. A sense of belonging comes when we share ourselves with others.

Just for Today: I am thankful for the friendships my Higher Power has given me in NA. Because of them, I am lonely no more.

We don't have to be lonely, we have a choice. I have been thinking of a friend for a week and never called her. Feeling really bad, she called me today to say that her husband has been in the hospital since the 3rd. He broke his hip playing hockey. I said to her, "What is he doing still playing hockey at 82?" She said, "I know, there was no stopping him, but there won't be any more now." It is so sad. I am sad, I didn't call, I have known him since early recovery and we were the same member of a group for many years. She is to call me back. I want to make sure she is not alone.

[MajestyJo]

October 15, 2014

Choices

Page 301

"We did not choose to become addicts."

Basic Text p. 3

When we were growing up, all of us had dreams. Every child has heard a relative or neighbor ask, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Even if some of us didn't have elaborate dreams of success, most of us dreamed of work, families, and a future of dignity and respect. But no one asked, "Do you want to be a drug addict when you grow up?"

We didn't choose to become addicts, and we cannot choose to stop being addicts. We have the disease of addiction. We are not responsible for having it, but we are responsible for our recovery. Having learned that we are sick people and that there is a way of recovery, we can move away from blaming circumstances-or ourselves-and into living the solution. We didn't choose addiction, but we can choose recovery.

Just for Today: I choose recovery.

What a marvellous gift we have been offered. We are granted a daily reprieve from this deadly disease, that offers us the choice to grow into healthy and active participating members of society.