Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, it was about acceptance and setting boundaries. The plans for Christmas were changed. My son took off and had a few beers with a friend. I told him I didn't mind what he did, but he had sprayed my oven and it needed to be cleaned if he wanted a Christmas dinner.

I didn't mind that he had a few beers with his friend as long as my oven got clean. What made me sad was the fact that by the time he did it, I had run out of energy, and I never got my pies baked. Hopefully, I will be able to do them tomorrow.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice my acceptance. It is what it is. As soon as I accept that, the sooner I can heal, let go, and move one day at a time. This too shall pass, and hopefully tomorrow, I can phone about getting my phone fixed, not that I felt like talking to anyone and no one woke me up. LOL! Not a very generous spiritual attitude, but thankfully this day will finish in 2 3/4 hours.

Sorry I missed yesterday.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will go with the flow. I will turn my day over to the God of my understanding and see what He has instore for me today. I will try to remember to say thank you as the day progresses.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will be God Conscious instead of Self-conscious. I will to will my God's will for me in today. I have already reached out and asked for help and a service person will be here tomorrow to fix my phone and I have an appointment on Friday to see my chiropractor. I know that after a visit to him, I will have less pain. I think it is a pinched nerve in my neck that is causing a lot of the headaches.

I will not block myself off from the Will of my God.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will ask for what I need to do for myself. A big part of me in today, has just wanted to crawl into bed and do nothing. A lot has to do with the snow and rain that is happening outside at the moment. I need to go inside and connect with my HP and ask for the courage, strength, and direction that I need.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will give thanks for a wonderful day. The sun was shining, and I had to take a taxi twice to get to where I wanted to go. Light snow was falling and everything looked like a wonderful winterland. The streets around me aren't cleared, so I had to go into the west end of the city, cross the street to get a bus back. I couldn't get off at the normal stop, but took the next one and walked up the ally by my apartment. Not one I want to take at night. There was a Coca-Cola truck parked there and thankfully for his soul, I couldn't get by without going around or finding him and asking him to move over and give me space.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will celebrate 2016, let go of any resentments, anger and other negetaive feelings and start 2017 with an open mind, and a loving heart, and a trust that one day at a time, I will stay clean and sober in the New Year.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will work on my acceptance. When I struggle, I find that I only get more pain. I was up all night and all morning, and didn't get to sleep today until 2 p.m. and not the way I want to start 2017.

As they say it is a change in attitude. No longer thinking, pain go away I want to sleep. I need to pray and ask for what I need to change the energy that is causing me pain and accept things as they are in the moment.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice self-care. I will listen to my body. I will turn off the old tapes and make new ones. I must remember that I am the one who has control of the play, erase, and/or rewind buttons.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will pray for patience and tolerance. I still haven't heard about my phone. I am trying to allow for the fact that the offices have been closed over the holiday. I had someone call me twice today, but when I picked up the phone, there was nothing. Other times, I have tried to make calls and after talking 2 or 3 min. the phone just goes blank. Apparently they can hear me talking at the other end, but I can't hear them. Other times, I get no dial tone on my end, but a call will come through.

In the moment, I am waiting for my mixed berry (raspberry, strawberry, thimbleberry, and blueberry) pie to finish cooking. Then it has to cool for me to eat it. My son came up with a great idea last time, after it cooled enough not to melt the plastic, he set the pie on a couple of ice packs. It looks like he inherited his impatience from me.

As they say, "God grant me the Serenity....

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will keep coming back. I like to say, "I will keep coming, so I don't have to come back. As my son said to me several years ago, "Didn't you say, that when you went to a meeting, that you always felt better afterward. Why stay home and be miserable, when you know you can go to a meeting and feel better. It doesn't make sense."

Just for today, I will be senseable, I will connet with another alcoholic/addict. The power is in the rooms.

[dwmoeller]

Just for today, I will have a program. I may not follow it exactly, but I will have it.

[MajestyJo]

Thanks for sharing Dave. This reminds me of what my first boyfriend in AA said to me. He said, "I had a program, there were just times I chose not to use it. This was after his first 1 year anniversry after being in AA off and on for many years. He died from leukemia. He died sober.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will remember to take my QTIP (Quit Taking It Persona) with me. As the saying goes, "What other people think of me is none of my business, and visa versa.

[dwmoeller]

Just for today, I will have a quiet time all by myself with no distractions and relax. I will try to get a better perspective on my life. I will read a devotion. I will meditate. I will pray to my Higher Power.