Please Post I'm in trouble

[mmacto]

I kind of love how alcoholics think. Man it's a bunch of work being one. Here's my awesome thinking that I actually live and also lived by. I won't bore you with knowing when every thing closes and get your booze from different places so they won't know (they know).Thats entry level.
My number 1) hide or turn off your phone. I do that 95% of the time. The other 5% results in embarrassment. Don't use your phone.
2. white wine doesn't count. It actually does when you've scoffed a bottle of red after and a few shots. Friends wondering why you're so wasted.
3. Your fellow alcoholic friends are just as ****ed as you. Don't worry if you lose them. They'll lose you happily. Quitting makes them feel bad.
4. Alcoholics are often cool smart people. Usually damaged. Never completely give up on them. But understand them. They lie.
5. Try not to do drugs especially cocaine which is the peanut butter and jelly of alcohol. You won't eat. You'll drink twice as much. Next day is horrible. Also confusing because you were convinced you could save the world. Awful.
6. Alcoholics lie. Nuff said
7. You'll eventually lose your driving license. Don't **** me. Of course you drive 'impaired". See rule 6
8. Even weekends in jail suck. Trust me. It's a whole lot of hate. And you have about as much street cred as a crooked accountant.
9. You will cross that line from functioning to non. It's an ugly place and is completely unpredictable when it happens. 2 years? 40?
10. Your work might suck but calling in sick after drinking a Mickey of vodka when you woke up isn't because you didn't get a raise. They WILL though eventually fire your unreliable alcoholic self.
11. Don't make fun of this line. You drink the bottle. Then the bottle drinks you. It does. Alcohol is a cruel mistress when you are an alcoholic.
12. You'll get fat. Really fat. Or weirdly skinny with a very non sexy little beer belly. Either way you'll look like ****.
13. Try AA. It's a good program. Not for all but most. Just give it a try.
14. You'll hurt your family. Believe me they know. They just either love you or are so dysfunctional and embarrassed by your behaviour they protect you. Either way you're the asshole.
15. No one thinks a drunk is sexy ( for the youngsters) and bad things happen to passed out girls.


Unfortunately I'm not giving you this information as a recovered person. But I'm going to try again. Never give up. It's a ****ty disease. Anyone willing to help?

[MajestyJo]

When I came into recovery, I asked my spiritual advisor and NA sponsor, "What do I need to change?" He said, "Everything."

I was told to change sponsors, but the man had 11 more year than I had, he went to AA, even though he was a recovering addict. My first sponsor called herself a pot head and my last sponsor was addicted to heroin. They were triggered in NA, and went to AA.

In NA, they say, "Alcohol is a drug." So it is about going where you feel comfortable. I went to AA for my denial. I went to NA for identification. I went to Al-Anon and found myself because of my past, my parent, my two failed marriages, two sponsees going back out and not making it back in, and a son who is in active addiction.

We don't quit forever. We quit one day at a time. Just for today, for me, people, places, and things. The drug is but a symptom of my disease (dis-ease), and the problem is me.

[MajestyJo]

p.s. The first time I got drunk, I drank a mickey of rye. We were in a bar that served only beer in Toronto. He had a mickey of rye in his pocket for me. It is a progressive disease. My last drunk I drank a mickey of rye and an 80 oz bottle of white wine.

Each day of our life we play Russian Roulette with our lives. How do we know we can make it back if we go out. When they say, "Keep coming back." It is keep coming back to meetings so you don't have to go back to where you came from. The slogan isn't permission to go back out and try some more alcohol and drugs you haven't tried yet or ones you like and want to try again. It means STAY! Bring the body and hopefully the mind will follow if you aren''t brain dead.

It is a progressive disease. If you have sober time and go back out, your disease has been escalating and when you go back, if I am not mistaken, it is worse than what it was before. For one thing, the guilt and remorse itself can send you into deeper addiction.

Keep coming to the site. Share, we are here for you. I have been in the rooms for several 24 hours, and I still need to practice the program one day at a time. It isn't a chore, it is a way of life. The freedom of recovery, living and enjoying life without the use of drugs. We can do what I can't do alone.