I let go and open to a new experience

[MajestyJo]

To let go doesn't mean we are a quitter. Many times we have to let go for ourselves, other times it is best to step aside and allow others to be where they need to be and we go on to what our God wants us to be and go there.

I left another site, I had lots of warning, my cards and meditation, even my sponsor said, "You don't have to go through this and told me twice to quit the site." It was my inability to let go, I was posting for the guests, so they would have something to read when they came to the site, because no one else was posting and sharing. I came to Tammy's sites, and I haven't had that turmoil about what I post and she says that I can never post too much here. Who knows, she may change her mind yet.

Sometimes my posts may seem personal, but I post here just as I would if you met me in my home, at a meeting, or in the community. What you see is what you get. If I am not open, how can I receive.

As I have said before, "When I was using, I was known for a 50 mile radius." I don't care who knows I am in recovery, and I try to carry the message wherever I go. It is my recovery and what I experienced. It isn't just what I learned in an AA meeting, although AA is the foundation of my recovery. I am no longer fragmented, I am whole, there are many parts to me that I had to heal and align with God's will. The program isn't just about the alcohol and pills, it is about all of me.

I know what you mean BW, twice there where so big time moments, where I felt like I was touched by the hand of God. I could feel the energy release from my body from my head to my toes. I have had many times felt the peace and as many people have said, "They see me and see the peace." God just is, and He is a part of my life daily. I don't have to see Him in order to believe Him. He never goes away, if he disappears, it is because I have gone or shut Him out.

Each day is a new experience. As I so often say, "God is as He reveals Himself to me in today.