Change

[roverl0616]

The same person will drink again and that's why they tell us we must change. We all fear change and when we do it brings out our character defects, as we fight the change we need. Soon after getting beyond the fear of not drinking I was confronted with a bigger fear doing my 4th & 5th step. I felt like I would be losing something by exposing what I had hidden, this was making it hard for me to do them. What helped me proceed was this I was told that in nature there are no vacuums, that when something is taken out, something fills in, and that in our gut it's sometimes hard to tell if we're feeling fear or excitement, is it fear of change we're dreading, or the excitement for the possible of something better. After I did the 4th & 5th step I was the same person and not a thing from my past had changed, but somehow I was. I felt like the future wasn't going to be the same as the past. As I went ahead with the rest of the steps I learned that this was part of that spiritual awakening that was necessary. I never did lose a thing and I've gained a lot from the change I needed.