New here and helpless

[mandi999]

I have been struggling with alcohol addition for several years. I have been through two treatment centers, but enter back into the real world and fail. I've went long periods of time sober, but always fall short at the end of the day. Have tried AA in my area and the rooms are filled with men with court papers they needs signed for attendance. I now feel that I can do it with the help of God, but am so afraid of losing my husband and children and just feel like I'm living in limbo. Some members of my family support me, others don't. I feel like that if I lose my husband and kids at this point, it will push me back. There have been so many broken promises and I don't know how to prove that I am serious after so much has happened. Any prayers and support are greatly appreciated.