Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will show love and caring to others, especial the "A" in my life. I will give that same love and care to myself. How can I have compassion for someone, if I can't find it for myself?

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice patience and tolerance. My water is off and all of a sudden, my son was willing to come and clean my apartment, so who knows when I will get another offer.

Walked downtown and to the library and my hip gave out. I thought the exercise would be good to stretch it out, but having problems with the pain. I tend to push myself, but have to stop and think, am I really suppose to be doing this?

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will be connect with my God and ask for His good orderly direction. I seem to be torn at the moment as to what to do first, if to do it at all. I am going to have some lunch and take it from there.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will be unafraid, my thoughts will be on my recovery and do what is good for my health and well being. I will have faith my Higher Power will show me the way.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will set goals and leave the outcome to my God. Some days we seem to be on a different page, so I need to align myself to His Will.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will forgive myself. Even though I know it is not good for me, I am sitting here having a piece of white cake with butter icing that my son brought me after he went to the food bank. I can forgive him, because he know I like cake and he went to the food bank because he is out of work. He has a choice of what is there, and he knows that I like cake as much as he does. It was a big slab, so he brought it to me to share. The same could be said about the potato chips he brought, if I get to eat them before he decides to eat my share.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will accept what is in today. I am glad the sun is shining at the moment, even though it is going to rain later. I had to learn to accept the fact that my body tells me that rain and snow, tell me 3 days in advance that it is on the way.

Acceptance is the key. Things happen, so it is how I deal with things that matter.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will put my sister into her God's Care. I did a meditation earlier and asked that she be given what she needs according to her God's Will.
Just for today, I will remember that I am powerless, and with my God all things are possible. When I have done a healing prayer session, I say to the person, "This is a contract between your God and mind, and it is up to them as to what you receive, I am but a channel and pray for your healing and that your needs be met.

[MajestyJo]

When I went to see my sister, she told her daughter and son-in-law that after her operation, she knows where she is going. She said, "I will be going home or to heaven, and she was ready to go to either place. If it is my time to go, it is my time to go." I said, "Yes, and you have a lot of prayer with you when you go into the operation and after you come out."

Called my sister last night to say "Good Night" to her. She found out that she is not having surgery today, but will be in the hospital until such a time it happens, which can be Monday or Tuesday. The waiting is difficult. She is my baby sister and four years younger than me.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try not to worry and walk in faith.

http://season.org/how-to-pray-agains...anic-and-fear/

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will make a point of looking at the little things, and say thank you. Don't overlook the small things along the way on your journey, because you are looking for the big thing to get your attention.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will come from a place of love. I will be loving, caring, forgiving, and patient. Loving myself, so I can give true love to others, instead of loving and using others to find love for ourselves.

[MajestyJo]

Moral/Immoral

Many people think that this is a moral disease, I think it is a thinking disease. It wasn't the true me speaking and acting out in my disease, although I was responsible for them, because I made the decision to use.

I lost my morals, principles, and my life skills as a result of using, although on the whole I thought I was a functioning alcoholic/addict. Quite often those functions were not healthy choices, and I went from a good little Christian girl to a person with a mouth like a long-shore man and looking for love in all the wrong places.

The moral of my story is don't use people, places and things to make me feel better, but go within and connect to my Higher Power and live by the Divine Orderly Good to show me a new way of living. The biggest gift the program me was the ability to find myself. I had lost me, I was very fragmented and totally unemployable and I got to a place where I started to think, stop the world I want to get off, after being a very extroverted and outgoing social person.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will put things in my God's Care. Not just my life, but that of others. My sister is being operated on at noon, and all I can do is pray for her. She is not sure the doctor can repair her heart, but she said today, "If it is my time to go, it is my time to go."

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will let go of resentments. I will pray and ask for it to be removed. Whether it is real or justified, anger is still a danger to me.

I asked my brother-in-law to keep me updated and he never called me. I had to call at 9 a.m. to find that she was a long time in surgery and still in ICU. I don't know why I should be surprised, I was more hurt, but it has happened many times before.