Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice patience and tolerance. Housing is suppose to come in and spray my apartment today. It is in my file that they can only come from 9-1 p.m. I got a notice late on Friday saying that they were coming from 11-4:30 p.m. I phoned them and said, "You have made this error twice in a row. If you can't be here by 1 p.m., cancel and reschedule." I just can't be out at night. I have no were to go and it makes for a long day seeiing as I woke up at 7:30 a.m. If they spray at 1 p.m., I can't get in until 5 p.m. and that only allows 4 hours and I should be away for 6, because of my asthmaric tendencies, when it is humid and the night air seems to affect my breathing. Hopefully the weather will be fine and I will be too. I just have to turn my day over to my HP. I do not need a resentment. I seem to have a running one with Housing, so will have to pray for them too.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice self care. It is okay to care for other, but it has to begin with me. I can't give away what I don't have.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will forgive myself. Today was not one of sobriety, even though I was clean and sober.

I have to accept my Fibromyalgia and all the symptoms of this disease. I forgot to turn the burner off under my kettle, which was dry. Thankfully my son came in after work and found it before my kettle burnt. I was really upset with myself for not setting my alarm right and missing the appointment with the specialist. I have been waiting a long time to get in to see him. The one good thing that happened, I went to the walk in clinic and I was the first person seen. The doctor said, "There is no infection" See your specialist. On the bus to the clinic, I figured that is what he was going to say. The toe bleeds for no reason, but the peroxide and Polysporin seem to be doing there job. The one good thing I did, was reach out to my friends Barb and Theresa, and to my son.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will give thanks for the gifts that are given each day, if we but look for them. I never go into this one store, not my style and something told me to go in and found myself two pairs of leggings for $20., I have gotten them cheaper, but these are good quality. They are so jazzy and colourful, with flowers and designs, that I just might have nightmares wearing them to bed. LOL!

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to have a day of rest. I have had busy days this week and the body is protesting. I wanted to go to bed but the body wouldn't allow me to rest.

I did a meditation when I came back from doing laundry. Maybe I should have just prayed and asked for forgiveness for abusing my body by going out shopping and to my chiropractors for 5 hours, only to come home and do laundry for 3 hours.

Laughing, this is how my body feels, all tied up in nots. Having problems putting one foot in front of the other.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice patience and tolerance. My son took his bike and went to work on the mountain. He always goes for drugs when he gets paid, so mother is trying to detach and not worry and stress. He started chili before he got the call to go to work, so mother has to finish. I had to go and get the ingredients, which met another trip downtown, which I didn't want to make today.

Good things do come out of not so good things. I found some clear garbage bags to put some clothes in and I found most of what I needed in the $1. store.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will focus on my recovery. I will deal with my feelings, I will allow myself to feel and turn them over to my Higher Power and ask for His Help in letting them go. I can't, my God can, just for today, I choose to let Him

Poor Eeyore is always sad and depressed. He needs to go to his Higher Power to help him with his emotions.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will let go of any and all resentments that I have carried over into today. I will say a prayer, because I know that prayer works.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will let go of any and all resentments that I have carried over into today. I will say a prayer, because I know that prayer works.

[MajestyJo]

Today I will practice patience and tolerance. As I found out today, which verified what I was told years ago in early recovery, "If you pray for patience, you get things to tolerate to practice your patience on.

I forgot why I stopped going to the Hairdresser School to get my hair cut. My haircut took 1 1/2 hours to get done. I left home at 10 after 10 and after very long day of busy, I got home at 10 to 4 p.m. Then I did two loads of my laundry and helped my son do some of his. Thankfully we got through the day without pulling any hissy fits.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will give thanks. I have had many gifts as a result of this program. Each day is a new beginning, so I plan to have a good one. Stuff doesn't matter to me any more. It is nice, but it is more important to have my serenity and sobriety (soundness of mind).

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will be thankful for the friends in my life, past and present. I met an old friend today, it has to be at least 6 years since I saw him last. Today at my group, we had about 8 more people than we usually do. Does my heart good. I am so grateful for the little things as well as the not so little things.

It says we are to become like little children. We need to learn to crawl before we can walk.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will ask for the healing I need to align my body, mind and spirit. I always like to do a meditation to aling my chakras. My chiropractor says that I never cease to amaze him as to how much I am in tune with my body.

Today was a good day mentally and emotionally, but the body from the waist down is still trying to play catch up. It is important to give thanks for the gift(s) in today. As the card I got several years ago, and the words of wisdom from a good friend the other day, "Give thanks it is already on the way." Don't forget to give thanks for all that you receive. I can't receive if I am not open and willing to accept what is sent my way.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will be honest with myself. I will listen to my body and hear what it says without trying to shut it off or shove it down out of hearing range. My chiropractor said that he never knew anyone who was more in tune with her body. So I think that I will be still today, after I go to the market.

It is important to find my own truth. What works for me may not work for someone else. I like the word perusal. Look at what is going on around me and look at my life and the direction I am heading or am I just marking time, and need to be more active or take more down time. I have been busy the last few weeks and this week my feet have been like balloons. I thought that walking and getting active would help, but it hasn't been the case. So it is back to the drawing board, do a meditation, and see what my God has to say to me.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to be more patient with myself. Haven't felt very good today and have been a little impatient with myself. I wanted to get things done and my head ache, which seems to be borderline migraine, kept getting in the way. I laid down for a nap after taking an extra-strength Tyenol, but it wasn't any better when I got up an hour later.

I do get resentful when the body can't keep up with my, quite often over active mind.