Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try not judge myself too harshly. I didn't get to the noon meeting. I did get a 12 Step call, so that was good. I tried to get sleep and got two other phone calls that woke me up, so I perceived this as a message to get up and not sleep the day away and spoil my sleep tonight. I am my own worst enemy and harshest critic. Eventally, I was able to make peace when I sat down and did a meditation.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I am grateful that the sun is shining. I am grateful for those little things, they add up to big things. I am grateful for the people in my life. God is Good. Good is God.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will accept what is. It is pouring rain and I have things to do, mainly going to my home group. I need to brave the elements and though I know I won't melt, I have problems carrying an umbrella and pushing my walker, especially if it is windy. I say that beause I can hear wind chimes blowing outside my window.

I have a friend who is sick as well and hope to go and visit her. She lives close to the express bus. Each place I have to go is only a block from the bus stop, some of them long ones, some short. I have to accept what is, and if I can't go, then accept my limitations. The ironic think is, I have had a lot of pain, and now that the rain is here, my pain has lessened. It is hard not to have a resentment. The day will unfold as it should, not as I would have it be when I turn my day over to my Higher Power.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I am still working on acceptance. I was feeling too sick to go see my sister and get my shopping done. My money will burn a hole in my pocket.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to get out of the way and live according to my God's Will instead of trying to make things happen and running on Self will. My mind is running around and nothing is clear, so stopped to post and hopefully clarity will come.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to get motivated and get my laundry done and quit procrastinating. I will get it done this afternoon or this evening, depending on how many people are in laundry. I do have some catching up to do. Today is pumpkin patch day.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will remember that this is a "we" program. Had a one on one with a member of the fellowship this afternoon, after I had been at a morning meeting. I felt like it was meant to be, he hadn't been at the group and I ran into him in the mall on my way home. Someone I have known for about 24 years. He has about 12 years more time in the program than I have. We agreed on a lot of things, which is good. This sums up what we were talking about.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will believe that my God is with me, where ever I choose to go. I have been so grateful for the people he has put in my path, especially the last few days. I have been truly blessed. I have been in a lot of pain and having problems thinking through it, but I know I am not alone. I was so glad to get to a meeting yesterday, today, and hope to make Al-Anon tomorrow. My home group is on Thursday. This is not normal for me, so I am grateful that I am getting the meetings now before the snow comes and I am isolated. You have to order Darts a week in advance, which can be an issue because I never know how I will be on any given day.

[dwmoeller]

Just for today I will be agreeable. I will look as well as I can, dress becomingly, keep my voice low, be courteous, criticize not one bit. I won't find fault with anything, nor try to improve or regulate anybody but myself. Just for today.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will pray for patience and tolerance. I walked away from my appointment with the heart specialist wondering if he was on cocaine. He seemed to be so hyper. Not saying he was, but he seemed to have problems focusing and when I spoke, I wasn't sure he heard what I said. I left home at 10:15 a.m. and got home at 5 p.m. A very long day, and I had to be patient with me, because the body didn't want to keep up.

[dwmoeller]

Just for today I will have an attitude of gratitude. Tonight I will get my 6 year chip at the AA meeting. As I reflect on my sobriety journey, I have so much to be grateful for. Thank you to all who have been a part of it.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will pray for people, places and things, large and small. I shared with a friend today, after he shared with me about the healing of his cat how I had sent prayer to my sponsor's cat that hadn't eaten or drank for three days. While we were talking, the cat got up and drank some water. The cat was 19 years old. Several months later it died. For me, a thought is a prayer.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will reach out to a friend. I will remember it is a 'we' program andwhen someone comes to mind, I try to pick up the phone and call or say a prayer for them.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will remember when and recognize where people are coming from. I will forgive them and allow them their own journey without direction from me.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will focus on my health and recovery. My body is doing wierd things and not sure what is happening. I think the medication is affecting my kidneys. Can't win, try to get mobile by getting rid of the swelling and then I find myself walking like a drunken sailor because the diuretic causes dizzyness. So grateful this program is one day at a time.