Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will ask for patience and tolerance. I just sat tonight and put 3 visits this month, 4 visits next month, and 1 visit for August to see doctor or go to hospital for tests, and on top of that, I have to remember to call Darts a week a head of time to book for a ride. God grant me patience. They say He doesn't give your more than you can handle. It has been my experience that my God has more faith in me some day than I have in Him.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, looking for some acceptance. My friend saw my son the other day and she was shocked at his appearance. He always loses weight working in the outdoors, in the sun. Generally not this early, and he had already lost weight prior to going back to landscaping.

He has me worried, but I have to let go and let God. He will not go to a doctor and I have to accept that. I have told him he needs to get things check out, but I think fear built up in his own mind keeps him from going.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will live in the moment. I will not project into the future and tell myself, what if? My son is ill and he won't go to the doctor and I am worried about him. Not sure if I need to do an intervention. He has been to treatment before and he chooses not to go there. It is let go and let God. I just have to accept the fact that he may choose to carry the message, "to use is to die."

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I had to ask for patience and tolerance. Cooking is a chore when you don't feel well and your legs are swollen and you don't want to stand on them. I toughed it out and did up some dishes and cooked roast beef, french fries, and tossed a garden salad.

It is amazing what a little patience can do, dinner turned out quite yummy!

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will accept what is in today, even though I don't like it. It was a day with little sleep. I am hoping to be able to go to bed and sleep the night away!

Not much sun here, hope it is shining where you are.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I am back accepting my Fibromyalgia. It has rained all day, and I think most of last night too. A lot of sirens today, so I always try to say a prayer for those who are in jeopardy. Squeeze me gently.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will have to have a wee talk with my God and pray for the willingness to be willing on several things like eating, sleeping, and resentments.

I know I am powerless over people, places and things, and I know that only me can change me, but it seems like my got up and go, got up and went.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will let go of the anxiety. I am wondering if that is what has been causing my pain. I did a meditation before I started posting. I think a lot of it is stressing about my son. He won't go to the doctor to get his health checked out. I can't, my God can, just for today, I will let Him.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I was very much in need of patience. I even looked around while waiting for Dart Transportation and saw a large black ant. According to Jamie Sams' the ant means patience.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to stay calm, go with the flow and see what my day brings. My friend's name keeps popping up, so I will see if she wants to run away with me today.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will stop procrastinating and do some laundry. Some times I have to say "Enough is enough." Yesterday I just had to go to bed and get off my feet, so my schedule looks worse than ever. It isn't very promising from my point of view, so I think I will turn my thinking, not my laundry, over to my HP.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to come from a place of love. I have some people who I have to interact with in today, and I will need patience and tolerance, without myself and others.

[MajestyJo]

Just for Today, I will be patient with myself. My tremon disorder is acting out and I am making a lot of typing errors. I am getting double letters or I press a key and it doesn't print. I have to blame it on the disorder as I am a good typist who did 75 wpm when I finished school. A lot of people type faster, but that is alright. Not sure I still do 75, probably 65 and a lot less with the errors. My pride is taking a beating, because as many as I correct, I probably miss some. Like just now, I typed a word and I couldn't recognize it. Too fast is not always good. Not doing though is worse, so I will persevere, especially since I miss spelled that word. Thank God for spell check, yet even they don't get them all. They suck at grammar just as much as I do. LOL! Then it could be my computer....!

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to get to my Al-Anon meeting. I missed an AA meeting because of a headache that developed into a migraine. It is the first time one has put me to bed in a long time. I still have a headache. My head feels like it is on fire and clamped in between two hands that are squeezing it.

I will do more meditation before I take myself to my bed. A little disappointed as two of my postings have not yet put up their post for today. I left Google Chrome because they were slow and my patience was wearing thing. Came to use Avast and the speed is much faster, even if the reading are not up yet. Today I will try to keep my patience by turning things over to my God.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will ask for my memory bank be fixed. Not often I miss a post here, and I forgot one for Elder's Meditation. I am going to ask for clarity of thought and the Good Orderly Direction I need to say the right words and not forget any posts that I normally do daily.

I love these two, I make a point to copy them every time they appear.