Please Post I'm in trouble

[MajestyJo]

p.s. The first time I got drunk, I drank a mickey of rye. We were in a bar that served only beer in Toronto. He had a mickey of rye in his pocket for me. It is a progressive disease. My last drunk I drank a mickey of rye and an 80 oz bottle of white wine.

Each day of our life we play Russian Roulette with our lives. How do we know we can make it back if we go out. When they say, "Keep coming back." It is keep coming back to meetings so you don't have to go back to where you came from. The slogan isn't permission to go back out and try some more alcohol and drugs you haven't tried yet or ones you like and want to try again. It means STAY! Bring the body and hopefully the mind will follow if you aren''t brain dead.

It is a progressive disease. If you have sober time and go back out, your disease has been escalating and when you go back, if I am not mistaken, it is worse than what it was before. For one thing, the guilt and remorse itself can send you into deeper addiction.

Keep coming to the site. Share, we are here for you. I have been in the rooms for several 24 hours, and I still need to practice the program one day at a time. It isn't a chore, it is a way of life. The freedom of recovery, living and enjoying life without the use of drugs. We can do what I can't do alone.