Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will enjoy what is left of my day, and probably most of the night. Didn't have all that much pain, but for some reason, I didn't want to go to bed. I caught up on some Beat Bobby Flay programs I had recorded and a Tanked show too. I didn't have time during the day, probably because I was sleeping. I woke up a couple of times, hurt to move, so just snuggled back and went back to sleep. It looks like we have had rain all day, but it has stopped now and the sun shining.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will be more productive. I will try to get the laundry done that has been calling me from behind my back, while I sit at the computer. I don't sleep at night and then sleep the day away. I don't like doing this, especially if it is sunny. If it is raining, like yesterday, I roll over and go back to sleep.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I don't like the image looking back at me in the mirror. I look like I have had more sleep, which I have. The thing that bothers me is that it looks like my face is now swollen. The fluid is all through my body, so not sure what is happening. I am going to call the doctor's office in the morning, if I can get some sleep between now and 9 a.m. when they open. Must remember to love myself and try to do what I need to do. I have prayed and asked for what I need to change.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will hope that today will be a better day. I have places to go and things to do, so hopefully my body will oblige me.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I am working on my acceptance. I accept my disease, but today I had to work on my dis-ease. All these doctors appointments are driving me crazy, especially when I can't spell or pronounce their name.

[dwmoeller]

Just for today, I will be happy. I will have a program and will use it in all areas of my life.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will give thanks. I feel very blessed. My prayers have been answered. I am now off the medication that I felt was giving me the head aches. More will be revealed next week, two medications stopped, two new medications to replace them. Another medication is half the amount of previous prescription. I have no valves blocked, but I do have a weak heart, which I think was caused by the old medication.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will continue to show my gratitude while I go three days of cleansing from my old medication to make room for one that is quite new on the market and people have given it two thumbs up, which is a good sign for me. As the saying goes, that keeps popping up in front of me says, "No pain, no gain." I want to say, "Enough already." Again I have to remember, I have to accept what is in the moment, knowing it is subject to change.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will trust the process. My son informed me that I always worry and that I was alright and there was nothing wrong with me. He doesn't see my body as I do, and he discounts my pain, because he knows I have it every day, whether I tell him or not. He says, "You always have it mom." It is the new aches and pains that had me stressed today until I realized what I was doing. I start the new medication for my heart on Tuesday. In the mean time, I am detoxing my body from the old, so I can start the new. How can I forget, that is how it works.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will show my gratitude by sharing my story with others. Gratitude is an action word, it is better shown than just spoken.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will take the advice I so freely give to others. Take care of yourself, do what is good for you and your recovery in today.

Yesterday was a very big day, didn't have much sleep last night so came home from my meeting and went to my bed. My son woke me up at 9 pm. or there about, not too sure.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will make plans, but I won't plan the outcome. My goal is to go to the library. I have 6 books to go back and seven to pick up. I am watching tennis, and have much more to watch. Have nothing else planned for the weekend, it is a good thing. They call for heat and storms.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will listen to my body. In order to get my grocery shopping done, I need to take myself back to my bed. With a head ache and a slight fever, I think I qualify. In today, I have to check my motive and intent. Am I hiding from the world, am I sick, do I need the rest, or am I just hiding from life in general? This is something I did for years, not something I do much of in today. There are not enough hours in a day and don't like to spend it in my bed.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to get motivated and do what I need to do, Part of that is posting and not letting the day go by.

[dwmoeller]