Chipping Away at Defects of Character

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will remain grateful. I went to the Hamilton's Women's Discussion group to help celebrate the groups 28 year anniversary. They were there for me when I entered the doors, and they loved me back to good health. My journey led me away from there, but have always been treated as an honorary member when I go back. How can I not be grateful, after celebrating at my home group earlier today. I see my life and I see this picture and think, "How big is God?"

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will remember Rule #62. I won't take myself so seriously. I must remember to laugh at myself instead of beating myself up.

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Just for today, I will remember to take my Higher Power with me. It makes a difference if I say a little prayer when I wake up and invite Him into my day. The world just seems a little brighter.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will strengthen my program by going back to basics. If something is missing in my life or I feel an internal void, I need to go back to what I did when I came into recovery. Just for today, I choose not to use, no matter what life hands me from day to day. We can do what I can't do alone.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will take care of myself and not let the old tapes get in the way. So glad a day can start any time. It can end too when I choose.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will get out of self and help another.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will be accepting of what is in the moment. I was told in the hospital that my kidneys were bad, but I don't think it registered as to how bad. When I went to my heart specialist today, she said, "Why didn't they keep you in the hospital?" They don't do that very often here, so I am glad they didn't. I have been complaining of the pain and my doctor and interns ignored it as another fibromyalgia ache and pain. You just never know with fibro.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will remember to be grateful for this program. I don't have to pick up in times of stress and I can take things one day at a time.

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Just for today, I will be conscious of my patterns and habits that are not conducive to recovery. Even old tapes from early recovery have to be revamped and often deleted. I will be open to change, be it my attitude or my actions.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice my faith by letting go and letting God. He is so much more qualified to handle things than I am. I will do the footwork and trust that He will follow up in His own time, to do what is best for me and those I love and care for.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will practice patience. I want it, and I want it yesterday. Mostly the answers, but the healing and change to my body. This high to low blood pressure is a puzzle to me and I am hoping to get answers on Monday when I go to the hospital.

This is appropriate, as the rabbit depicts fear in Jamie Sams Animal Medicine book. There is a little bit of fear there. I have found myself bursting out in song, singing some of the old time religious songs. Some that were new to me a long time ago like "The Old Rugged Cross Made the Difference." as well as "The Old Rugged Cross."

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will try to be assertive instead of submissive when it comes to my medication. I have mentioned my pain to the doctor, and it went untreated. Now I have to deal with kidneys that are not working up to par. I complained of the pain in my leg, and it is getting worse. I have had a head ache for days, so when I see my doctor on Friday, I will have a few words to say to him. It isn't just him, but he is responsible for the interns he has on his staff, and he referred me to the heart specialist that caused damage to weaken my heart. Hopefully with prayer and healing, things will right themselves.

[MajestyJo]

Just for today, I will live my life God-centered instead of self-centered. I will change my behaviors, patterns, and habits and not act out in my disease. I will turn my life over to the care of my God and leave it there and not take it back.

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Just for today, I will let go of ego. No more of the great I am and recognizing that what I am is a Child of God and of His Making.

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Just for today, I will work on my patience and tolerance. It isn't too bad with others, but as I told my doctor today, "I don't care that I am getting older, I still have expectations on myself and don't like it when I don't measure up. I am back expecting more of myself. That is my disease talking.