When one alcoholic/addict shares with another alcoholic/addict

[MajestyJo]

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish enough "Hello's" to get you through the final Good-bye."

From the poem: I wish you enough love

Love the poem. The first paragraph describes my life prior to recovery and my life the last two years. The nice thing is that I don't have to pick up to cope. The program allows me deal with life on life's terms. When I get to that place of being sick and tired of being tired and sick I know that I have to make some changes in my life because I am in a danger zone.

The difference between the person who came into recovery and the person who is in today is night and day. That person just does not exist any more. I keep coming because I know the answers are in the rooms. So many times I have been in pain, gone to a meeting and gone home pain free. Today there is more pain in my life then there has ever been in my life and yet I don't have to use and abuse myself because of it.

This was written and posted on another site in 2009. The pain over the years has been worse. A different kind of pain, but still I look it as life as it is in the moment.

When I come online and share with others, it helps me to get out of Self so I am not sitting in my pain. It isn't just about me, others are hurting too.